A Cell-deep Shift
Last night I experienced…..I don’t know what to call it. It might have been a level of anemoia except I didn’t feel sorrowful or melancholy. I felt enveloped in a familiar, in an aura of contentment tinged with a desire to stay in this familiar. Except, in my known reality, it wasn’t anything I consciously remember experiencing.
Anyway. I was lying in bed feeling very cozy, listening to some streaming music (U2X on Sirius XM) when a song by Andrea Bocelli came on, “Con Te Partirò”, a song I’ve never heard before in my life. Now, I know nothing about opera or classical music - not my jam - except I do know who Andrea Bocelli is and I have heard some of his music.
I was lying in my warm, cozy bed with the lights very dim and my yorkie, Sammy, snoring beside me, chilling to the music. My window was open and a light breeze was blowing gently into the room. The song began, Andrea’s mystical voice flowing like clean water into the room, when the breeze coming in through the window shifted in a way I cannot describe except to say I felt different, my mind felt different. The air felt and smelled of the ocean. It was the damp and salt of the sea that you experience walking on the beach at night. The song with the scent created a few moments that felt familiar but in an old or ancient way, almost as if I was transported to another time or level of being, an altered state, a cell-deep shift. It lasted for a few minutes, as long as the song, and it was amazing. It ended with the song. I don’t know what to make of it. The only thing similar I can compare it to is how you feel when a song comes on that you associate with an event in your life so that you almost feel like you’re there again, for a few seconds. Except I have no memory or event associated with this song.
I don’t know how or why this happened but I wish I could bottle that feeling so I could remove the stopper and be in that space again.